It is finally here, Team in Training's journey to San Diego for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society of Canada.
It’s a 21k walk which I know sounds simple enough but trust me it is not. There are also my teammates running the full marathon...they are amazing machines. Everyone has their reason why they are doing this.
For us walkers it is almost 4 hours of walking, so its endurance. And I admit it, I am not ready. My old ankle decided to give me grief a few months ago and it is not happy. George my physiotherapist has me stretching, strengthening and icing!
But here is the thing; my biggest fear is disappointing people. My heart and head are ready, they are, but my fear is not being able to finish and not only feeling disappointed in myself, but feeling like I'm letting you down, especially the ones who have sponsored me and supported me. Now I know, nobody will think that, but there I go worrying again.
I have really tried recently to stay and live in the present moment. You cannot do anything about yesterday and certainly we do not know what is going to happen tomorrow. So staying in the "right now" is what I will do during the 21km journey.
I am not as tough as I act sometimes. I can yap like a Chihuahua sometimes even bite like a Doberman, but this is the most venerable I have felt in a long time. I may come across as confident (which I have good moments I'm not that pathetic) but I am little rattled on this one.
But I have two people who are pushing me. One in particular is who I am doing this race for. You may have read in an earlier blog, my high school sweetheart Michel passed away in his young 20's from acute Leukemia. I know he is with me, I feel him, he was my first love...I will have his picture pinned to me during the race, as a gentle reminder of what courage looks and feels like. HE truly and still is one of the happiest people I have ever known. This more than anything is for you Michel.
And of course there is my darling radio colleague BJ, who bravely battles Lymphoma. This race is also for you. I think of you daily and you also will be my inspiration to finish.
I thank all of you for all of your kind words and motivation. You have no idea how much it means to me.
Slow and steady wins the race. So body I ask you stay strong, at least on Sunday.
If you want to donate to the cause here is the link....much love and peace. Donnaxo